Arise Like A Phoenix

“To select the best or most desirable”

Cherry Picking is a narcissist super power. They have the ability to selectively focus and point out and highlight only what they want you to know. Only the good memories. Only their good deeds and behaviors which distorts your view of the relationship. They get to ignore and downplay the negative aspects and you get to sit there wondering what the fuck is happening.

That’s where my reality began to shift. I questioned what “I” was thinking, seeing, and even hearing.

I remember one time I was behind his car driving, clearly his car, no mistaking his car, with a blond driving it. I was so stunned I called him. His chicken shit ass of course did not pick up (part of the control) he did however text me to tell me he was on the other side of town and I was just making shit up in my head. Telling me this as I watched her pull into his driveway.

I walked away that time only to get sucked back in just a few short months later. To this day he still will not admit it happened. To this day he will say I just make things up in my head. I heard this so much I questioned if maybe I was going nuts. I sure felt like I was off my rocker, going cuckoo for Cocoa Puffs. Intuition was always there but I began to believe that maybe that was just me feeding into my own delusions. I questioned my reality so much, I didn’t want to leave the house. I honestly hated life so much at this point. The person that swore to Love me until death do us part was trying to kill me slowly each day.

I wonder how I was so naive, so stupid to trust in someone who is so evil. How did I never see it?

Truth is, they are just that good at masking their true selves. In the grand scheme of things they are a master magician, switching masks whenever they need to, just here to put on a show.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self seeking. It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices within the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves.