Arise Like A Phoenix

“Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me”

That was a rhyme we used to say when I was growing up to our bullies calling us names.

Words sometimes do hurt especially when they are said to other people about you. I’m pretty tough when you say things to my face, but the smear campaign that the narcissist uses is a brutal tool in their arsenal. I was blessed enough to land myself in an entire family of narcissists. I say blessed because I believe everything is a lesson and believe me that was a very slow burning lesson and the smear campaign was multipled three fold.

I couldn’t wrap my head around my husband the one that was still claiming to love me to my face but behind my back he was saying heinous things that you don’t say about someone you love.

I was baffled people were buying this shit. At this point more cheating was revealed so I just finally went dark, enough was enough. My mental well being was at stake at this point. I went beyond no contact. Not only blocked, but blocked across all platforms. Family blocked. Friends blocked. I decided on six degrees of separation so if anyone that associated with anyone that associated times six was no longer a contact to me. They all just became people I used to know. I changed my routines, I take a different route to work, I stop at different gas stations, I shop in different stores. Once I finally did that, I truly began to heal. To finally become myself again.

I recommend some sort of therapy and that can be anything that works for you. For me self therapy and shadow work and a lot of prayer (and when I say a lot I mean ALOT). I will always be a work in progress but I’ve begun to find a peace and love for myself I’ve never had before.

I will never let anyone sit at my table again that didn’t earn a seat with genuine love.

I am not the victim of my story – I’m the author, the plot twist and the come back they never saw coming.